Wanted to make a new blog, but for some reason, it will not let me pick a new URL dispite my creative attemps :P. New stage that I feel needs a new start. Praise God for this time period of teaching me patience and the steady steps that produce fruit when obedient. I love to surprise others, and to keep many things to myself... strange that I am a blogger and would feel this way no?
It is cool to see how it feels to be waiting each step of this new journey!
I have been back in the States for more than serveral months now, but have --with God's grace-- not rushed as I some times have been very tempted to. Do not get me wrong, I do not think that everyone should do as I do, but I think in every in appropriation to the way we are being convicted to.
I like fitting in nowadays, which is why not getting a 9-5 job has been a bit of a challenge to address when people look at me and ask what I am doing. Instead, to learn that it i okay not to keep up with the Johnsons... to tweak the old saying..
Being patient and waiting, although I had begun attempting to be busy--praise God for His Grace-- I have been able to see the blessing of what I have to learn and do in this time of awkward transitioning.
Litterally... I have been so awkward and relearning how to be able to be bold and not timid. To see the holes in my character that I have did not realize where there before. Most of the things that begin to corrode at the heart begin with good things, but are twisted by our sinfulness and desire to control. Relearning how to love by sacrifice, and not just Go Go Go all the time.
Learning in all sorts of ways, arn't we all?
One step
One step, then another. The road gets more interesting as I see more of what is the bend I have been journeying too. Scary at first, but a blessing to love on and learn about those around me now. :)! God is amazing! !!!
Ps. 97 Snippet:
"Let those who love the Lord hate evil, for he guards the lives of his faithful ones
and delivers them from the hand of the wicked."~R
Sunday, October 11, 2015
Wednesday, July 16, 2014
July 15th 2014, Grace like rain
Grace like rain,
it might be a song,
but one thing that happened
is yesterday all day long--
it looked like it was going to rain.
Woke up early
A brand new day,
feeling refreshed,
ready to be on my way,
a brand new day,
on the radio a brand new song.
Felt like the Lord saying trust me,
knew from the day before, where to park,
to bike from there to school.
It looked like it was going to rain..
I was thinking really...???
Should i really park there. I knew i needed to bike.. but..
Okay Lord. And listened.
The entire day, looked like it was going to rain, but it didn't. By God's grace
How hard it was for me to trust, some thing so simple.
If only these little things are difficult, what about the big ones?
It it shows that relying on Him, never lets me down in the end.
Reminder of how much better it is to look foolish to a friend but
trusting GOD over logic and the voice that calls us out of sin, is one that is worth
the faith.
The day ends in warm embraces from friends and memories that are drops of honey.
So sweet, and warm, which sinks inside of me.
Safe drive home.
worth it conversation.
Got to see old friends, BA. who is leaving tomorrow.. (technically leaving today --i am writing)
But the LORD provides. He is faithful he is the best planner, romancer, and grace.
How I want to remain in HIS embrace.
Following, and having the courage, no... the Faith to step out and listen. Even if logic is erased.
Its so funny, many things went wrong today, but that is why, the little things of grace just blessed my heart.
It's Pat's b-day! I got to say hi! Yet another thing that was joyful inside. Friends are blessings, reminders of our creator, who called us out and no longer hates us, but cleans us and remakes us to be holy. Called worthy in his presence. Not because of our selves, but because of his son. The only one with the name above every one...His name is JESUS.
it might be a song,
but one thing that happened
is yesterday all day long--
it looked like it was going to rain.
Woke up early
A brand new day,
feeling refreshed,
ready to be on my way,
a brand new day,
on the radio a brand new song.
Felt like the Lord saying trust me,
knew from the day before, where to park,
to bike from there to school.
It looked like it was going to rain..
I was thinking really...???
Should i really park there. I knew i needed to bike.. but..
Okay Lord. And listened.
The entire day, looked like it was going to rain, but it didn't. By God's grace
How hard it was for me to trust, some thing so simple.
If only these little things are difficult, what about the big ones?
It it shows that relying on Him, never lets me down in the end.
Reminder of how much better it is to look foolish to a friend but
trusting GOD over logic and the voice that calls us out of sin, is one that is worth
the faith.
The day ends in warm embraces from friends and memories that are drops of honey.
So sweet, and warm, which sinks inside of me.
Safe drive home.
worth it conversation.
Got to see old friends, BA. who is leaving tomorrow.. (technically leaving today --i am writing)
But the LORD provides. He is faithful he is the best planner, romancer, and grace.
How I want to remain in HIS embrace.
Following, and having the courage, no... the Faith to step out and listen. Even if logic is erased.
Its so funny, many things went wrong today, but that is why, the little things of grace just blessed my heart.
It's Pat's b-day! I got to say hi! Yet another thing that was joyful inside. Friends are blessings, reminders of our creator, who called us out and no longer hates us, but cleans us and remakes us to be holy. Called worthy in his presence. Not because of our selves, but because of his son. The only one with the name above every one...His name is JESUS.
Saturday, June 21, 2014
Time to time
Summer time.
What a step. A taking breath, leap of faith.
But.. Where has this smaller than a seed faith gone?
So scared to ask, to humble myself I continued to make excuses,
Until the situation looks optimal for me,
personally,
not even thinking of others
but using others as an excuse
why don't I just listen the first time?
or why try to be "polite" or "non-imposing" if there is a bigger reason...
a bigger and better out come.
why get caught
caught up in the formalities?
It is strange how the years pass, but i feel more imature than my childhood years.
Children watch others,
pay attention and take mental notes of thier surroundings,
they may be innocent of the evils that go on with other notions that might be hidden, but they see
they see and feel the things they do not.
Why do we leave them or get annoyed so easily?
why place importance on things that will not cherish you but instead use you ?
Children, all they can do is rely, but they are the ones we get frustrated with first.
Colleagues, others our age, older... they rely, but we seek their approval right?
Thus, we do not get frustrated as easily,
if we do, we make a judgement and move on. How can we get so robotish?
So driven out of emotion that we forget that they are made in the image of the Living God?
The one who breathed life into us....
Babies.
A blessing from above
Acronomically
Blessed
Anticipating
Beauty
In
Every
Sprit
Are created, with hearts close to our maker.
Their only hope is to rely right?
How can they do it themselves?
But the bible talks about how
""See that you do not despise one of these little ones. For I tell you that their angels in heaven always see the face of my Father in heaven." -Matthew 18:10
So if they are being watched by the angels so close to God, how much more should we cherish them?
But instead, we debate on whether they are human. so that we can do what we want...
I know there could be a hurt or pain, but since when does that give us the ability to lash out and hurt some one back again? especially on a third party?
Give them a chance and you will feel the joy inside you,
joy that comes from life,
breathed
living,
once small it is God's sustaining life,
the air he set into motion in you or me.
What a step. A taking breath, leap of faith.
But.. Where has this smaller than a seed faith gone?
So scared to ask, to humble myself I continued to make excuses,
Until the situation looks optimal for me,
personally,
not even thinking of others
but using others as an excuse
why don't I just listen the first time?
or why try to be "polite" or "non-imposing" if there is a bigger reason...
a bigger and better out come.
why get caught
caught up in the formalities?
It is strange how the years pass, but i feel more imature than my childhood years.
Children watch others,
pay attention and take mental notes of thier surroundings,
they may be innocent of the evils that go on with other notions that might be hidden, but they see
they see and feel the things they do not.
Why do we leave them or get annoyed so easily?
why place importance on things that will not cherish you but instead use you ?
Children, all they can do is rely, but they are the ones we get frustrated with first.
Colleagues, others our age, older... they rely, but we seek their approval right?
Thus, we do not get frustrated as easily,
if we do, we make a judgement and move on. How can we get so robotish?
So driven out of emotion that we forget that they are made in the image of the Living God?
The one who breathed life into us....
Babies.
A blessing from above
Acronomically
Blessed
Anticipating
Beauty
In
Every
Sprit
Are created, with hearts close to our maker.
Their only hope is to rely right?
How can they do it themselves?
But the bible talks about how
""See that you do not despise one of these little ones. For I tell you that their angels in heaven always see the face of my Father in heaven." -Matthew 18:10
So if they are being watched by the angels so close to God, how much more should we cherish them?
But instead, we debate on whether they are human. so that we can do what we want...
I know there could be a hurt or pain, but since when does that give us the ability to lash out and hurt some one back again? especially on a third party?
Give them a chance and you will feel the joy inside you,
joy that comes from life,
breathed
living,
once small it is God's sustaining life,
the air he set into motion in you or me.
to remind us when we breath
its his breath given
comes from something bigger than our imaginations of us living
on earth
because heaven is when He created birth of life
heaven where He resides and is listening to our every cry,
wiping the wet eyes
offering to take the pain,
if we just let him in His son Jesus Christ's name.
Amen.
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